Ok so this is for creative writing, and I chose a randomm topic! But this teacher is a bish;) and i NEED A GOOD GRADE ON THIS!!!!!! Im not done btw but i wanna know if im doing a crappy job now, so I dont write the whole sucky thing.!
My heart thumps painfully against my rib cage, to the point where I think it could physically break through my chest. I let out short gasps that are becoming harder and harder to manage as the pain becomes worse. More tears glisten down my face in rivulets. The clear salty streams bewilder me, since I am unaccustomed to such vivid emotion. I double over in pain and curl up into a ball, compressing myself until i can move no further. I don’t want to ever relive that memory. The pain is etched into every muscle in my body, making me twitch uncontrollably at the thought of ever having to endure such a thing again.
As I lay sobbing on the tile floor of my one bedroom apartment, I open my eyes for the first time since that horrid memory entered my mind again. It had been ten minutes since I had the precognition, the one that shattered my faith in the universe. What had I done?
I don’t deserve this, I think miserably to myself.
Some things are just better left a mystery. Especially when said mystery concerns when I die. I remove the brown strands of hair that are plastered to my wet face and cast them over with the rest of my long messy hair that I had swept haphazardly behind my elfin ears. I measure my breathing carefully, and stretched my long tan legs out until the tips of my toes brushed against the white wall.
It felt good to stretch my cramped muscles, so I loosened them stiffly and stretched as far as I could reach. I breathed a deep sigh, and carefully lay my hurting head on the cold tile. My hair spread out all around my head in a stringy halo. Every single time I blinked, I saw the outline of my….. I couldn’t bring myself to think of the word, for fear of what horrid memories might resurface. So I focused on a crack in the tile, and was happy while my mind was preoccupied.
As I stared at the crack, I realized that I ached all over. So I bent my knees and lifted myself up off the kitchen floor. Once I accomplished that small feat, I shook my head sluggishly and trudged out of the kitchen. When I reached my room, I passed an intricate French mirror on my vanity desk. I paused enough to contemplate my savage appearance. My usually beautiful hair was in snarled tangles. My brilliant green eyes were red, swollen, and puffy. Like Botox, I thought, with dry humor. I didn’t smile. I just couldn’t bring myself to, even though I had a smile that could light up a room like a thousand suns. I turned from the mirror. Why try to fix myself up when death was so imminent, so swiftly approaching? I felt it was almost tangible.
I sprung onto my four poster bed and fell flat over the bohemian style comforter. I groaned into my pillow, and shut my eyes. I might have thought sleep was so unlikely, I don’t know. All I remember is slowly drifting into a fitful sleep, while my mind wandered dangerously……
I awoke with a jolt, hearing a scream that could wake the dead. It took a few seconds for my brains’ gears to begin turning, but when they finally did, I was startled. It was me that was screaming. My mouth was open in an ugly grimace and my hands clutched at my face in horror. That gut wrenching scream emanated from my battered windpipes. I quickly shut up, fearful of my banshee shriek. I took a couple deep breaths through my nose.
Calm down, I thought frantically to myself. I actually listened to myself. I relaxed my muscles once more and immediately felt better. I plopped back down, but realized too late that I misjudged my position. My head thumped hard against the wall. I rubbed the back of my bruised head with my eyes squinted in anger. So much pain! I was only a teenager, for goodness sake! Not even adults experienced this turmoil.
Then I racked my brain for a second, and surprised myself. Why didn’t I think of it before! I slapped my forehead in relief. I’m crazy! I am completely crazy and it was all just a dream. I was totally in denial, and I knew it. But my mind did all it could to reject what I couldn’t understand. It fought hard, and won. I wanted to continue on with my normal, sheltered life. So I did. I happily hopped off my bed with a sudden burst of energy.
I skipped to my linen closet, humming a cheery tune. I avoided the mirror as if my life depended on it. Well, at least my sanity did. I absolutely did not want to see my awful reflection, so I passed right by the mirror without even a glance. With my towel slung over my right shoulder, I shut my bathroom door. I then proceeded to take the best shower of my entire life. In that shower, I cleansed myself of the previous night. I wiped myself clean, emotionally and physically. I locked a vault in my mind, with the information that I could think again. I fretted about whether they might actually